im still in love with you

hey d. whasup? its like 10:30 here. im going to have shit to deal with tommorow out the ass so u know how thatl be. listen, and understand. your like my best freind in the world. i can talk to you and you make me feel alot better. just u help my mood so much. your just young in alot of ways, and i look at you and its like your innocent and have so much 2 learn. but thankfully i know better. ha ha. look that was the closest im ever gonna get to kissing you, but when i did, it wasnt what i expected. it didnt feel the way in my head i thought it would. in fact it made me feel bad. i just wanted to hug you more and more after that cause i didnt want to fuck anything up. i didnt want to hurt you but i want to be honest with you. i still love you dar, alot, thats never gonna go away. not in a million fucking years. but youve become closer to me in other ways. more like a little sister than someone i would date. people who date are gonna part ways eventually, but freinds are always gonna be freinds. your always gonna be that little thing in the back of my head and im never gonna forget the day i looked at your picture. but i wanna be honest, i dont wanna hurt you, but your my best freind, and i cant pretend its anything more. your smart dar, really smart. youve got way more common sense than i do, your beautiful and whatever dumbass cant see that can blow his brains out on the pavement. your something special that only comes along every once in a while, so i dont wanna throw that away, but i know its gonna hurt, i know its gonna be tough, but im asking you, as your best freind, as priest, as Will Ely, will you trust me, take my hand, and join the rest of us on this black parade.

so today its been a year since i got that message from someone i was head over heels for. we had these plans together and i thought they were gonna go far. i remember trying to not tell him i didnt love him when in reality i did. Will still wanted to be my best friend but i was hurt beyond hurt and now we barley talk. i miss that. i could tell him absoultly everything and he did the same to me. we would talk all night on the phone. he'd make fun of me when i found a shiny nickle and i lost track of what i was saying but it was a playful way not like your a freaking retard. i miss Will. Now i have someone else like him in my life and im afraid if Izaiah is gonna do that same thing. I really hope he doesnt i have handle this again