i wanna get wasted

why the hell do i regret letting you go??? why??? i dont get it. your always like lets hang out but no you hang out with some other dipshit. i dont get it. its possible that i want someone to punch in the face yeah its greatly possible. i want to be strong and say i dont need you but i do. i cant do it. i should be focused on other stuff. why the hell cant i focus on them becuase of this. i'm sleeping :/ only call if your paige thats why. there is so many other guys in the world but i have to pick you. FUCK YOU!!!! i can't wait till i can walk down the hallway next year. I'm changed and trust me i dont care if you rub her in my fave. i dont fucking care. i dont need a guy like you. i only wanna date a guy in a band next. thats it. maybe a guy being in a band will have something a little more important then getting obessed with me.

i wanna get wasted, wasted on you

Talking bout my generation

Yesterday Kayla and I went to the Battle of the bands in farmington. Why did we do this you may ask. Violets for Verona little did i know i would be falling in love with another band. The Underground Sun. I'm enlighted by them. I love there music with a passion. They bring everything back from the 60's. I love them. Theres something about them that makes me want to sit and listen to everything they well ever have to say. Maybe this is getting high off of real music maybe its a phase in my life. I don't really know. I've spent most of today listening to classic rock and downloading good songs. I can say that i now i am a bigger Zeppelin fan, The Doors fan, The Who fan, Styx fan, Boston fan then ever before. I have the urge to go make a t-shirt that says The Underground Sun if diffrent sharpies. They're that band with a purpose ive been looking for. I've found them and the answer in The Underground Sun. Just like Violets For Verona i want to go to everyone of there shows. I want to be that fan where they go oh yeah her? She part of the answer were doing this. You see that sign she made us? Thats whats keeping us going today. Thats what else i need. Call me a hippie do it. I'll wear that lable proudly for likeing this band.

Violets For Verona still gives me motivation to move through the day though thats not gonna change just becuase The Underground Sun is the solution. I made them a poster that say We Heart Violets For Verona and they loved it. Kayla and i got our poster signed and got a picture with Ryan it was one of the things that made my day. Another good back there was Riley. They did a beatles cover that was pretty amazing and gave out ice pops. another thing that made my day that day. Right now im enjoying the wonderful sounds of Iron Butterfly. you know that 17 minute song "Inna-Gadda-Da-Vida" thats what i'll be listening to for the next 17 minutes. such a good song and i have decied that one day when i get good at my guitar i will learn how to play this. This is gorgeous song.

On august 12 Kayla and i will be seeing Tokio Hotel here in Detroit Michigan for the first time ever. There is nothing more exciting that that seeing this band you love well one of them. We scrimped and saved to get this tickets and no were going. it seems so unreal to see them up and personal.

In addition to all the concerts ive been going to im looking up quotes. you know those ones that grab hold of you and dont let go. yeah thats what ive been doing. ill post one at the end of this blog for you to see what i mean. i dont know if you'll get it. it might not effect you in the same way as it did me. one may never know. But as this seems it is winding down to an end. I will try and update this more often but please if your reading this comment it. it would mean alot.


If music be the food of love, play on; Give me excess of it, that, surfeiting, The appetite may sicken, and so die. That strain again! it had a dying fall: O, it came o'er my ear like the sweet sound That breathes upon a bank of violets, Stealing and giving odour!
William Shakespeare (1564 - 1616), "Twelfth Night", Act 1 scene 1

New Mexico here i come =D

It totally sucks when you parents tell you they would pay for your schooling only if its in a field that they approve of. knowing me my first choice is of course going to be music. I want to be a roadie. That's been my dream for a while now. My parents have deiced that the music biz is not for me and i should do something that will benefit me in the end meaning which were not paying the money to do that pick another job field. so it just do happens that Kayla and i have been talking about the medical field and we talked about job positions we would like to have. I've looked threw tons of fields and have deiced on Pediatrics or Radiology. For those who don't know what either fields are I'm here to explain. Pediatrics is the branch of medicine that deals with medical care of infants,children,and adolescents. In other words a pediatrician. Some may argue that pediatricians are not considered professional doctors. I don't get why they would say that i mean pediatricians have to undertake a course of study, training, and residency that is comparable and equivalent in every respect to a psychiatrist, surgeon or any other specialization. if i do break onto this field i would like to work in the intensive care unit helping infants learn to breath on there own. My other field choice is Radiology doing x-rays,ultrasounds,mammograms and other things with the use of radio waves. The actual definition of radiology is the specialty directing medical imaging technology to diagnose and something treat diseases. Radiology was discovered in 1895 on November 5 by Wilhelm Conrad Rontogen at the physical institute of Wuerzburg University. He named it X-Radiation and the term is still used today. Radiology is classified broadly into two subdivisions. Diagnostic radiology and therapeutic radiology. Diagnostic radiology is the interpretation of images of the body to aid the diagnosis or prognosis of disease. Diagnostic includes: Chest radiology, abdominal and pelvic radiology(sometimes together termed "body Imaging"), intervention radiology(uses imaging to guide therapeutic and angiographic procedures also knows as Vascular and intervention radiology), Neuroradiology(the sub-specialty in the field of central nervous system i.e brain and spinal cord, peripheral nervous system, osseous spine and its neural contents, and head and neck imaging), Intervention Neuroradiology(uses imaging to guide therapeutic and diagnostic and diagnostic angiographic procedures in the head, neck, and spine), musculoskeletal radiology(sub-specialty in the field of bone,joint, and muscular imaging), Pediatric radiology, Mammography(sub-division of radiology that images the breast tissue), Emergency radiology(Sub-division of radiology involved in the diagnosis and treatment of acutely ill or injured patients) Nuclear Medicine(sun-division or radiology that use radioisotopes in characterization of lesions and disease process and often yield functional information).Therapeutic radiology utilizes radiation for therapy of diseases such as cancer. There isn't any sub-divisions that i have found. some other type of radiology are:Projection (Plain) Radiology-Radiographs(Or Roentogenographs named after Wilhelm Conrad Rontgen) are ofter used for evaluation of bony structures and soft tissues.Fluoroscopy-fluoroscopy and angiography are special applications of X-Ray imaging in which fluorescent screen or image intensifier tubes is connected to a closed-circuit television system, which allows real-time imaging of structures in motion or augmented with a radio contrast agent.CT scanning-CT imaging uses X-Rays in conjunction with computing algorithms to image the bodyUltrasound-Medical ultrasonograph uses ultrasound(high-frequency sound waves) to visualize soft tissue structures in the body in real timeMRI(Magnetic Resonance Imaging)-MIR uses strong magnetic fields at align spinning atomic nuclei(usually hydrogen protons) within body tissues then uses a radio signal to disturb the axis of rotation of these nuclei and observes the radio frequency signal generated as the nuclei return to their baseline states plus all surrounding areasNuclear Medicine-Nuclear medicine imaging involves the administration into the patients of pharmaceuticals consisting of substances with affinity for certain body tissues labeled with radioactive tracer. let me say for 1.i do not want to work in nuclear medicine and 2.radiology might be more my calling. so what does New Mexico have to do with any of this? i plan on going to the University of New Mexico's medical school