shouldnt i be happy?

you know for once i have a guy i can count on and things seem to be going right and some people have to come in and stop it. well i know i haven't blogged much and i really should be like i promised myself. heres some stuff thats brothering me now
-"friends" who call straight edge retards-
fuck you. i'm edge get the fuck over. i don't wanna hear you going you edge kids are so retarded you'll knew know what its like to get high. pshh like i really care your out fucking your life up even more. yes i have non edge friend and i have edge friends. and pot is a fucking drug you fuck face. i'm sorry you don't see how your body is dieing
and now i have gotten my depression back and it pisses me off. i was so happy and now i'm not.
its no ones fault but mine. i went for a little walk last night and ended pukeing my brains out on the side of the road. some old lady came out and gave me a blanket and a glass of water i told her i was sorry about vomitting in front of her house and she said it wasn't a problem. the neighboor saw me laying there and came and took me home where i crashed on the couch for a few minutes then got on the computer and then i dont remember what happened. i woke up this morning cry. i cant wait for the next skateland show. i had fun at the last one. fear the innocent is playing march 15th so Kayla is comeing with me to see that then March 21 Violets For Verona is playing at the token so i'll be at the show. Kayla and I are starting a little pop rock band something fun. i'm buying her little sisters guitar its a lame first act but it will due till i can get the one i really want(Gibson Hummingbird). well this is goodbye for now